Onward and Upward!

What a fantastic weekend! General Conference was wonderful. We got to stay at home the entire weekend and watch together. Eli was cooperative enough to either watch a movie upstairs or work on his pirate sticker book quietly. I can't remember enjoying conference this much in the last several years. I would say I have been suffering from a spiritual anorexia--I have tried to get by with the bare minimum that my spirit could survive on. In reality it left me starving with no strength & in turn allowed doubt and temptation to cloud my thoughts. It's time to make some changes. God lives and remembers me. When Spencer Condie spoke on Saturday morning I felt like he was sitting in my living room only speaking to me. How interesting that he could have used many stories to demonstrate that the Lord keeps His promises but chose to retell the story of Rachel. How pertinent that was to my present situation! God will not forget me. I must not disconnect my obedience from His promises because of my earthly impatience. My eyes are all teary because I just listened to it again.

I also appreciated Sister Beck's talk on motherhood. Although the pangs of guilt came forward as she spoke of righteous women keeping an orderly home and being the spiritual center of the home I was not deterred from committing to do better. I can no longer let discouragement and cynicism take over. I can and will make a difference by loving & serving. Speaking of love, Elder Wirthlin's talk was so powerful! I thought he was going to pass out and die right there at general conference. His words were made more powerful by the kindness that Elder Nelson showed in offering him stability. Love is a power. I need to let go of the selfish inclinations that want attention and love with all I've got.

Conference came at a perfect time after feeling so down the other day. I am ready to move forward with faith with the knowledge that the Lord is aware of me and will take care of me.